Free to be Me http://www.mandikaye.com All Mandi Kaye, all the time Sat, 04 Jul 2009 18:42:46 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.5 en Fantastic Suggestions? http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/07/04/fantastic-suggestions/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/07/04/fantastic-suggestions/#comments Sat, 04 Jul 2009 18:42:46 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1040 I am out of things to read! I started the Sookie Stackhouse series (the books behind the popular HBO show Trueblood), but I read two of them and don’t really feel motivated to continue reading them.

All of my YA series are caught up, and I really do need to evolve to the land of Adult fiction.

I’ve been told the Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordan is a good series, especially since someone is finally finishing it. Also the Mistborn series.

Any other suggestions? Obviously I’m into supernatural and fantasy stuff, but I really read most anything - except westerns!

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/07/04/fantastic-suggestions/feed/ Good Slumber is Finally Here http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/07/03/good-slumber-is-finally-here/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/07/03/good-slumber-is-finally-here/#comments Fri, 03 Jul 2009 18:30:50 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1039 I bought a mattress set today. And it was delivered an hour later.

What amazing service!

Total cost, including mattress, box springs, delivery, and bed frame: $374

Total raised from amazing and generous people: $250

Really, you guys amaze me. I’ll never forget your generosity and kindness.

I’m sleeping in a bed tonight, baby!

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/07/03/good-slumber-is-finally-here/feed/ I Need Your Help http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/26/i-need-your-help/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/26/i-need-your-help/#comments Fri, 26 Jun 2009 19:45:32 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1038 I’ve never shamelessly used this blog as a plea for help before. And the funny thing is that now I’m doing it when I have virtually zero readership, so it probably won’t do me any good.

Bottom line - I need a bed.

I’ve been sleeping on my couch for the last three months. I had planned to do it indefinitely, but some unforeseen circumstances have come up. Namely - the emergency gall bladder removal surgery I had on Monday. I’ll be heading back home this weekend, and I’m not looking forward to sleeping on a couch while I finish healing.

SO!

I’ve placed a paypal donate button over there in my sidebar. Hoping beyond hope that I manage to get enough to pay for at least half of a good mattress set.

Thanks, in advance, of any help you might be able to offer.

Love,
Mandi

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/26/i-need-your-help/feed/ It’s the Journey http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/19/its-the-journey/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/19/its-the-journey/#comments Sat, 20 Jun 2009 03:58:14 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1037 I just read through two years worth of posts.

Wow.

It was interesting. I’d written a lot of stuff I’d forgotten about. Was reminded of a few things that made me cry. But it was all my journey. All of it is part of who I am. And the reason I went through it all was so I could put together a new page for people. A page that explains who I was and who I am.

Face the Strange will take you through my journey from faith to agnosticism.

It’s funny. When I started writing that page, I was all gung-ho about how liberated and free I feel. And then I read all of those posts and felt the pang of missed familiarity. The pang of regret. The pang of sorrow.

It’s not the faith I miss. It’s who I was. The people I once had in my life.

But maybe I do miss the faith just a little bit. The certainty of knowing why you exist and what you’re going to do.

But likely, it’s just a small case of “homesickness.”

Face the Strange is my story. It’s how I became who I am today.

Enjoy.

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/19/its-the-journey/feed/ Miserable http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/10/miserable/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/10/miserable/#comments Thu, 11 Jun 2009 00:23:47 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1035 You know, it seems like if it’s not one thing, it’s another.

When I was in Denver, life was crappy, but I adored my job. If nothing else, I didn’t dread getting up and going to work everyday. Now, life is pretty okay, I’m getting to be really happy with who I am as a person, but I absolutely dread getting up and going to work everyday. And this is a place where I spend 10 hours of my day (including the commute). I’m home and awake for 4 hours or so each night. The rest of my time is spent being absolutely miserable.

Three months and it’s like this.

I want to start looking for something new, but I’m torn. In my generation, we treat jobs we love like a right, instead of a privilege. I have this sense of entitlement. But then I think about generations past. People had the kind of work ethic where they stayed in miserable jobs for  20+ years. So… I’m torn. Am I showing a lack of character by not wanting to deal with it?

I don’t expect every job to be perfect. I don’t even expect to find another job I love as much as I loved working at DRM (at least not until I get my bookstore). But there has to be a happy medium.

Doesn’t there?

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/10/miserable/feed/ The Call http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/05/call/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/05/call/#comments Fri, 05 Jun 2009 23:12:00 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1034 I think you called me last night.

The number on caller ID was “Restricted” and you’re the only one to ever call me with a restricted number.

You hung up when I called your name.

Maybe it was a random wrong number, but it didn’t feel like it. You stayed on the line long enough for me to say “Hello?”   “Hello?!?”  

Then I said your name and the line went dead.

I think it was you.

I hope it was.

 

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/05/call/feed/ Dr. Horrible http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/04/dr-horrible-2/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/04/dr-horrible-2/#comments Fri, 05 Jun 2009 02:29:21 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1033 I can’t help it. I love this.



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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/04/dr-horrible-2/feed/ Troll Slayer http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/01/troll-slayer/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/01/troll-slayer/#comments Mon, 01 Jun 2009 11:12:04 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1031 This made my day.

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/06/01/troll-slayer/feed/ Too Much in Common? http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/05/25/too-much-in-common/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/05/25/too-much-in-common/#comments Mon, 25 May 2009 19:59:11 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1029 I went out with a really nice guy on Friday. We’d been talking for a week, and it seemed like we should get along just fine. There are so many things we have in common. We both share a love of music - even musical theatre. Our favorite broadway show was the same. We enjoy the same types of movies. The same TV shows. We made each other laugh very easily.

It all seemed too good to be true.

But when we met… it fizzled. There was no spark. It was awkward and strange. I knew immediately that, while he would make a great friend, there’s no way we could ever date. And I felt so bad for feeling it. He even brought me flowers, for crying out loud.

I keep running through my head what happened. He’s not a bad looking guy. His personality is great. Is it really possible for two people to have too much in common? Enough that it ruins any chance of chemistry or sizzle? I think it is.

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]]> http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/05/25/too-much-in-common/feed/ Another New Look! http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/05/19/another-new-look/ http://www.mandikaye.com/2009/05/19/another-new-look/#comments Wed, 20 May 2009 02:38:01 +0000 Amanda http://www.mandikaye.com/?p=1028 It’s a new start, so I got a new look!

It’s not done. Clearly the header/title is missing. I know! I’m waiting for the theme designer to get back to me with what font she used so I can set it up.

But man, I think this is my favorite theme that I’ve ever used. It’s so… pretty!

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