“It was actually kind of liberating to talk to someone about the problem I had with them, rather than just stewing in it.”

Was it a case that they didn’t know what your issue was withthem. I find that this often happens. for me its usually more often that I didnt know someone was mad at me, or I knew they were, but had no idea why.

Talking….always better than stewing.

Doing…always better than pr…. never mind.

Good luck in heroing, as I’ve mentioned I have to stay away from time sucking MMORPGs, even text based ones. They are like crack to me.

I’m glad you are getting out with friends. I hope Wall-E is a good movie. It looks really cute.

Good luck heroing.

~Kelly

*HUG*

Praying for you, sister.

Greg

And thank you Kelly. I’m learning a lot of what you said here. I’m very used to giving of myself and trusting wholeheartedly, no matter what. This is a mistake. And I’m trying to pull back and rein it in. Unfortunately, what’s done is done and I can’t undo the trust and the pieces of myself I already gave away. That damage has already been done.

I can only learn from it and move forward, not making the same mistakes again.

Research indicates that just as 30 minutes of exercise is beneficial, 30 minutes of housework can help alleviate depression as well. I use housework to help me get through stress all the time (believe me, there is plenty of stress for me to get through).

I’ve been wanting to caution you on at least some of the people you hang out with, but it was none of my business.

Although I don’t think highly of them, they are not the problem. The problem is you are seeking validation from the wrong people. Until you feel good about yourself, your life, you need to be putting stock only in the people you trust.

A note about trust, real trust comes from experience. You are not really experiencing people on the Internet. You are experiencing only a projected persona. It’s illusion. Even when they talk about you behind your back, that is not real either, just another projection to another person. There is no way to know what you trust in in this environment.

I am not suggesting that you avoid people or become so paranoid you cannot enjoy yourself, just don’t expect anything to mean anything more than a fun illusion. Don’t expect anything to be more real than the fantasy environment you are playing in.

You are a great person, very nice. You are a reliable person. People are going to want to spend time with you. I enjoy playing with you.

And there you have it, a nice long lecture. You’re a great person and I hate to see you suffering.