Archive for January, 2009

de-converted?

Monday, January 19th, 2009

Well I guess you could say I’ve de-converted. I’m not a Christian anymore. But I’m also not an atheist. I guess that leaves me with the agnostic label? I absolutely do not believe in the Christian god anymore. But I can’t say without a shadow of a doubt that there’s nothing out there. I still [...]

The Job Hunt

Saturday, January 17th, 2009

Well I got that official “you suck” letter today. From the company I interviewed with when I was home at Christmas. It’s ok. I was kind of expecting it. I would have done a kick-ass job in the position, but they either thought I would suck or I would be too good. Because yes, the [...]

It’s Worse than I Realized

Wednesday, January 14th, 2009

I had really thought I had a handle on my self-worth and self-confidence. I mean, I knew I still had issues, but I at least thought I was improving. Today I had a startling realization that confirms the opposite. You see, I can’t get angry with the object of my affection out of fear that [...]

I’m Coming Out

Tuesday, January 13th, 2009

It’s official. I talked to my boss today and told him I’d be leaving sometime in the next few months. And I told him that part of the reason was because I could no longer sign the statement of faith. So let me finally once and for all say what I’ve wanted to say here [...]