I actually think I’m beyond blue.
There’s an odd combination of things going on in my life… severe physical pain, lonely holidays, letting go of someone I love. Put it all together, and I honestly don’t know how I function from day to day. But it does explain why I feel like I’m on the verge of tears on a daily basis. And why right now I can’t seem to stop the waterworks.
I just want someone to make me feel better. To love me. But I can’t find that person.
Oh, babe! I wish I could take it all away. Daniel told me about your back today so I’ve been praying for healing for you. Hopefully it comes soon. You know I’m here if you want to talk. Love you lots.
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Sorry you’re having such a hard time right now.
Wishing you some relief.
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I can honestly say I understand what you are experiencing.
I know physical pain…suffered for two years with debilitating lower back pain. I was actually crumpled up in a wheelchair for the last two months before I finally had major surgery to correct my herniated disc issue. I remember crawling on the floor inch by inch to get somewhere and crying and thinking about how I now understand why people with chronic pain just want to die.
I know how it feels to let go of someone you love. I did it once and it about killed me. I was always on the verge of tears all the time and felt like a mental whacko. I couldn’t concentrate, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep. It was killer!
I spent Thanksgiving alone. I did see a friend who made me breakfast, but no turkey for dinner, nothing. I was missing my family big time, and the way things used to be and will never be again.
I can’t make you feel better, but I know the One Who can. You see, I met Him when I was in my “pit” of depression. He raised me up out of it, just like He will you. Cling to Him. You will be amazed at how he will restore you! Hang in there!
I’ll be praying for you!
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