Being alone with your thoughts when you’re depressed is not generally a good thing. As such, the worst times of each day are when I’m in my car and as I lay in bed at night trying to fall asleep.
These are the times where I think. And I dwell.
About what’s happened. What might have been. What should have been.
And it sucks.
I have been there. It is not pleasant.
Notice I said “been”? You will say “been there” someday too.
God is carrying you through, just let Him.
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Oh, Amanda
I wish I could just give you a big hug and ask you to tell me all about it. I, too, have been there, and yeah, it’s no fun. It’s very important for you to take care of yourself during a time of emotional upheaval so that you don’t get sick. I wish I had understood that before, as I did get sick as a result of emotion. It’s actually more common than people think. I heartily recommend the book “Deadly Emotion” by Dr. Don Colbert.
I haven’t been to your blog for a long, long time, but I’m pretty sure I get what’s what with you. I certainly have my own thoughts on the matter, but that doesn’t make it hurt less for you. Again, for what it’s worth, wish I could give you a big hug Guess a virtual one will have to do – *HUUUUG*
Hang in there. You are loved.
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What steps can you take toward some light, some life? What could pierce the depression. I know I would answer that question, when I’m there, as “I don’t know.” But you have such a good head on your shoulders.
Wish I could lift it all off of you just for tonight so you could lay in the moonlight and dream and imagine and fill your heart with all the love from a thousand people who care about you…
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I too went through depression, for about 2 years.
Things I did to take my mind off:
travel (it doesnt have to be far, just different)
New social groups and activities (for me: Hiking club, skiing with friends)
New job (that really helped becuase you get excited about the new work. I know you love your job, but there are others.
Note: I didnt move, never felt the need.
One thing that got me through my divorce (the cause of my depression). I knew that one day the mental pain would be over. It wouldnt be today, but one day. that day came within two years, I didnt even know I was there. One day I sat back, newly engaged, good job, nice house… and happy.
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What Amanda said. It really sucks to feel like you’ve failed at life, and you’re still failing, and you don’t know how to change it.
For me, Stoic poetry helps:
Obviously I fail that last line
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