Stronger Woman In Me
May 26th, 2008 by Amanda
It’s time for some change.
I’ve finally figured out that if I want to have self-worth then *I* have to do something about it. I can’t wait around for someone to see through all my crap and then to validate me. I need to validate myself. I need to drop all the habits I have of putting myself down. I need to make myself someone I like.
This is the season of my life where I work on me. Not my faith. Not my relationships. Not worrying about whether or not the things I’m doing are being frowned on by others. This is all about me.
And I don’t feel selfish at all for saying that.
I started this weekend. I’m really working on having a positive attitude. On being authentic and saying what I think, no matter how it comes across or what someone else thinks about it. And of course, the obligatory working out. 
My roommates and I decided about two weeks ago that we would make a chart, and for every 30 minutes of physical activity we do we get a sticker. Once we have 38 stickers, we’ll treat ourselves to Cold Stone. None of us have really been that into it. I had gotten 2, one roommate had 3, and the other had 4. In two weeks.
Stellar, right?
Well I just got my 3rd sticker (which is awesome because I tried working out the day we started and could only do 10 minutes before I wanted to literally kill myself, so I didn’t get a sticker for that activity). And I worked it out with my downstairs roommate so that I can work out in the mornings before work (because, let’s face it, I just *won’t* do it when I get home from work).
And even if I don’t drop a million pounds, at least I’m working towards physical wellbeing. And mental wellbeing *is* tied to physical wellbeing. And I need both. So this is where it begins. I’m working on me, because there’s a stronger woman in me than anyone sees.
First of all, love the song!
That being said, my best friend and I have been walking at night. We usually leave around 9pm and get back around midnight. It’s been awesome, too. In those three hours we burn 1800 calories, too, according to the mathematical charts on such things that I’ve found online.
For some reason it seems much easier to walk at night.
Food is my addiction, though. Our eating habits are still the same ol’ same ol’. We figure burning 1800 calories a night merits being able to enjoy the same ol’ fattening stuff we love to eat. Great logic, eh?
Exactly, Donny. That’s the whole point of working out!
Mandi Kaye, I know you’re not doing this for outside validation, but for what it’s worth, I’m proud of you. I’m excited for the adventure you’ve embarked on.
You go, Mandi. I just have one question.
If you do actually drop a million pounds, will that make you invisible? That would be a cool super power. Plus, you’d have less density than the surrounding atmosphere, so I’m thinking you could fly. You might want to let the FAA know.
Kisses
ooo ooo! Also, you could walk through walls. Think of all the fun that could be! Of course, you’d have to be careful.
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The scene: Mandi accidentally takes a wrong turn and winds up in neighbors’ bedroom….
Somewhat embarrassed neighbors: “Wow, I didn’t know a human body could do that!”
Mandi: “Wow, I was just thinking the same thing about yours…”
This is not only great for you, but inspirational for others too.
I’m proud of you and my thoughts will be with you.