Well I’ve officially let my boss know that I’m planning to move back to NC, so they know it’s a matter of when, not if. And I’ve got resumes out to a few places. Hopefully one of them will work out. I’d like to move this summer!
Speaking of moving, I’ll be moving this weekend. Out of this apartment and in with some friends until I move back home.
I’m tired of moving.
One of these days, I’ll be able to stop.
April 25th is the National Day of Silence to help end GLBT harassment.
I’m still around, even though I’m not posting right now.
I’m okay, even. Happy.
I just haven’t felt the need or desire to post about a lot of the stuff I previously would have posted about.
I’m not retiring this blog – yet.
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Before I write anything else, I have to say that I am absolutely enamored with David Cook. If you don’t get it, listen to this song! Unfortunately, it cuts out early at the 3 minute mark even though the song is 3:54. Sorry about that, it couldn’t be helped.
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Now. I think I’m schizo. I don’t mean to make light of people who truly have the disease, but I swear that something is wrong with me.
I had coffee (well I watched her drink coffee) with a good friend of mine tonight. It’s so easy to talk to her. And she’s convinced that most of my problems in life stem from self-hatred. Even my faith wishy-washiness.
And my faith is… wishy-washy. I vocalized something this week at Common Ground that I’ve been afraid to say, especially here.
My faith isn’t real. My faith is a series of actions that I do because people are watching me.
I know what you’re thinking. Not again! And no, not again. Still.
One thing my friend said to me tonight was that I shouldn’t disregard God and Jesus just because of all the things “God’s people” do. My response to her was that I’m not trying to disregard them, I finally trying to not disregard all of the stuff I’ve been taught to disregard.
When I made my choice for faith, I began going through the motions. I’ve walked the walk and talked the talk. But God, to me, is a giant void. I don’t feel God. I haven’t in a very long time. And that makes me ask if He’s there.
I know He’s there for some people. It’s evident that He’s all over my friend. But what if it’s okay that He’s not there for me? What if it doesn’t matter? What if her God is her God, and my God is… nothing?
Can I live with that? Yes, I think I can. The question is, can my friends and family live with that?
And… am I ever going to stop this going back and forth between faith and no faith?
Grace and peace be to all of you! Welcome to this week’s edition of the Christian carnival. There is no overarching theme this week, so I hope that’s not too disappointing. The entries are simply in the order in which I received them.
FMF presents How to Make Sure Your Church is Handling Money Correctly posted at Free Money Finance.
Ariah Fine presents Isn’t It The Churches Job? So, Why Do We Ask The Government? posted at Trying to follow.
Allen Scott presents Can You Hear Me Now? posted at Journey Across the Sky.
Curtis Suuppi presents The Institution of Marriage posted at Midnight Soup.
Doug asks Does the Church have a role in our confession of sins? at Bounded Irrationality.
Annette presents Being a Pastor posted at Fish and Cans.
Chasing the Wind presents God’s Dysfunctional Children posted at Chasing the Wind.
Theresa L. Twogood presents Coming To A School Near You Soon posted at OLIN e-Book e-Publishing.
Dan Seely presents Seeing myself in the Pharisees – Part 1 posted at Whirled Views.
Chad Dalton presents Sharing the gospel – #5 posted at Living Stone Bible Church Blog.
This week at Light Along the Journey, John looks at how focusing on God helps us overcome temptation in this post.
Ali presents Trusting God’s motives. posted at Kiwi and an Emu..
Bruce Alderman presents the church of america posted at it seems to me….
Allen Scott presents Can You Hear Me Now? posted at Journey Across the Sky.
Considering that Proverbs says Wisdom is a Tree of Life, the Weekend Fisher takes a look at how that could shape our understanding of Genesis’ Tree of Life.
Henry Imler presents New Poll: Women in the early Church. posted at Theology for the Masses.
John Hobbins of Ancient Hebrew Poetry takes positive note of Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama’s visit to Messiah College.
Donald S. Crankshaw presents The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil posted at Back of the Envelope.
Casey Petersen presents Extreme Measures posted at The Limitless.
Andrew Tatusko presents Why Would God Let This Happen? posted at Notes From Off Center.
James DeLelys presents Articles posted at WORDS.
Tom Gilson presents The Church of Oprah? posted at Thinking Christian.
Jeremy Pierce presents Open Theism and the Hardening of Pharaoh’s Heart posted at Parableman.
Henry Neufeld presents More on the Original Text posted at Participatory Bible Study Blog.
Paul presents Christian Integrity posted at Life is for Living.
Thom presents Finally, Prayer Beads! posted at Everyday Liturgy.
I have to include Thom’s narrative for that last link, because it made me laugh out loud!
Thomas narrates his adventure into making prayer beads, which is a bit scary for a guy.
Now, if I’ve forgotten someone or messed up a link, please let me know!
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As I write this, my Medievia character (Maranwe) is on a ship killing fae crabs.
Don’t ask. 
I’m completely addicted to this game again. Part of it is the game. It’s genuinely fun to run around and kill things and run quests, etc. But the other part of it is the community.
Medievia is just a game. I know that. But it’s more than a game.
It’s my way of finding the community that I desperately want that I’m not getting anywhere else. As much as I love my friends, they all lead pretty busy lives. They’ve got their own crap to manage. So I turn to online communities to find the relationships that I’m craving.
And for me, it works.
Most people think I’m insane and that you can’t find real community online, but it simply isn’t true. And the friends I make online are friends that will follow me wherever I go.
So this is one form of escapism for me.
What about you guys? Do any of you have things you do to “escape” from reality?
Oh Barack Obama… I’ve thought you were eloquent. Intelligent. Compassionate.
But then you say something like “punished with a baby” and I want to hit you.
Don’t say stupid things like that anymore, ok?
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