I was simply making a statement about what’s been going on in my life. Surrendering a struggle to God is something that Christians must do on a regular basis, because we can’t do it alone.

You seem to be under the impression that because I have to continue to seek God, then something isn’t working. But that simply isn’t the case.

I’m not chipping in here because I don’t understand your feelings. I do - I’m in more or less the same place. I’m not chipping in because I think you’re nuts. Your beliefs are well beyond the “threshold of stupid” - although I disagree with them, I understand that you’ve given them a great deal of thought.

Rather, I’m chipping in because I think that, if you want to change where you are, rededicating yourself to God isn’t going to do a damn thing. You’ve done it before on this blog - repeatedly - and it had no effect.

Banging your head against a brick wall is bad enough, but it’s depressing to see you bang your head against what is apparently the wrong brick wall. Have you considered trying a different strategy?