Just thought I’d tell you that I’m a committed Christian and I think it’s OK for you to have doubts, to explore, to think for yourself, and to come to whatever conclusions you think allow you to best follow the example of Jesus. I agree with JanieBelle above that you do not have to buy any particular conception of Jesus’s ultimate status in order to emulate him.

In this sense, the God that I worship transcends concepts like ‘Christian’ and ‘He’, and even leaps beyond false dichotomies like ‘reason’ or ‘belief’. All of our images of God (’imago Dei’) are ultimately fantasies in the sense that we can not really hope that our individual experience can map onto the totality of all that is, or ever will be, which is to say the ‘Cosmos’ we inhabit. And so, why should we be surprised that our conceptions of God are incoherent, and provoke conflict when compared with what we discover through investigation of the natural world?

Rather than chastising you, I say that you should be commended for recognizing that the conventional religious beliefs you have received from your culture may be incoherent, incomplete or even false. May your search for meaning connect you more fully with yourself and with others.