It’s not you, it’s me
Jun 6th, 2007 by Amanda
My friend Jeanie is an amazing woman. She always has the most perceptive insight and an innate ability to practically apply everyday life to Scriptural truth. Today she wrote about something that I really needed to hear.
“It occurred to me one day that though I often worry about whether or not I sense the presence of God I give little thought to whether God senses the presence of me.”
Philip Yancy in Prayer - Does it Make Any Difference?
In reflecting on that statement, Jeanie wrote:
What sweet invitation. I was somehow thinking that the pursuit of His Presence was elusive at times. Why, I wondered, am I so aware of Your Presence sometimes and at other times I am wondering where You are? Maybe because while I was desiring to be in that place of peace and joy, I wasn’t really “there.” Maybe it has been me missing from those uncomfortable void times?
What an uncomfortable thought. No one wants to think that a soured relationship has gone that way because of something I did. It’s always the other person’s fault.
But what if it isn’t?
Amazing.
Wow, sweet Amanda, I know I don’t belong in the company you are keeping in your blogosphere (where did all these amazing thinkers come from?), but I am honored.
I can see you and I are on some sort of parallel path right now - even in Bible reading. I just pondered the same stuff about Solomon/Jedidiah not 2 weeks ago (and used it as theme for my graduation letter to Jed Mahan!).
On the topic of the Presence, even after Adam and Eve sinned, God went looking for them - He wanted to be with them. Isn’t that awesome? I have had it all wrong, thinking it was hide and seek and hopefully He’d let me approach if I’d been doing everything right.
Come boldly to the throne of grace…