Monthly Archives: August 2006

Overwhelmed

by Mandi

Wow. Traffic really picked up yesterday! But then…what else would I expect when I invite a bunch of athiests to comment on a Creationist post? It ended up being a little overwhelming, which is why I didn’t respond directly to any of the comments left here. I did still participate in the comments over on Martian’s blog though.

One thing I want to make sure everybody understands. The purpose of my post was not to “defend Creation.” It wasn’t meant to change anyone’s mind. I was attempting to start a dialogue between two groups of people who are polar opposites. I’m tired of the banter back and forth that goes something like this:

Athiest: You’re wrong and you’re stupid for being wrong.
Christian: No, you’re wrong and you’re going to hell for being wrong.

Everybody is so intent on proving the other side wrong that nothing really gets accomplished.

And I’d say it worked to some degree. There was a fair amount of rudeness, but there were a few people who saw my sincerity and were willing to talk with me. In an email to one, I wrote:

I’m not a scientist. I don’t have a PhD. Heck, I’ve only done 1 semester towards a MA. Before recently, I’d never even thought about why I believe in Creation other than the Bible says so. Now that I’m studying it, I see a lot of things that make sense (obviously you disagree). But I can’t really get anybody to give me a straight answer about what’s wrong with it. I get a lot of “you’re stupid” or “you need a brain” but that isn’t going to change anything (not that I think my mind can be changed, but at least I’m willing to listen).

And I am willing to listen. I will also be continuing my series, when I have time to write up the other sessions.

And to the people who are critical of Dr. Hovind because of his personal life: That has no bearing on whether or not creation is true or false. Don’t tell me that his theories must be false because he was charged with a felony (or 50). If his theories are false, tell me why. You would take me through the wringer if I tried to tell you that Darwinian evolution must be false because Darwin frequented establishments of ill repute.

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Dr. Hovind and the Age of the Earth

by Mandi

I’ve been going through a seminar series with my Bible study group about Creation Science. It’s fascinating stuff. So I want to share with everyone what I’ve been learning and how evolution really doesn’t hold up as science when you really look at it. This post will only cover the first half of Dr. Hovind’s The Age of the Earth video.

Our textbooks start teaching our children in 1st grade that the earth is 4.5 billion years old. 1st graders will believe anything you tell them! Dr. Hovind gives a humorous account of how he wouldn’t eat bananas for 3 years because his brothers told him when he was 6 that they were moldy spider legs. Then the textbooks keep reinforcing this idea that the earth is billions of years old. You’ll find that science textbooks for each grade teach this idea.

Now evolutionists believe in 6 different kinds of evolution:

1. Cosmic Evolution – the origin of time, space, and matter. This is the big bang.

2. Chemical Evolution – the origin of higher elements from hydrogen. (If the Big Bang produced hydrogen and some helium, how did we get the others?

3. Stellar and planetary Evolution – the origin of stars and planets. (No one has ever seen a star form. What you see is a spot getting brighter and you assume a star is forming. It could be the dust is clearing and there’s a star behind it. No one has ever proven the formation of a single star. Yet it’s estimated that there are enough stars for every person on earth to own 2 trillion stars.)

4. Organic Evolution – the origin of life. Somehow life has to get started from non-living material. (But spontaneous generation was proven wrong 200 years ago.)

5. Macro Evolution – Changing from one kind of animal into another. (Nobody has ever seen a dog produce a non-dog. Big or small it’s still a dog. Dog, wolf, and coyote may have had a common ancestor, but they’re still the same kind of animal.)

6. Micro Evolution – Variations within kinds (big dogs and little dogs). Only this one has been observed.

Science is things that you can observe, test, demonstrate, study, etc.

For example: The 1st law of Thermodynamics states that matter can neither be created nor destroyed. Now everything is made out of matter–so then how did the world get here? There are two options:

1. Somebody made the world (In the beginning God…)
2. The world made itself.

Those are the only two options. If the world made itself, how did it get here?

Big Bang Theory: An actual textbook (Holt Science Book, 1992) says, “18-20 million years ago all the matter in the universe was concentrated into one very dense, very hot region that may have been much smaller than the period on this page. For some unknown reason, this region exploded.” Another textbook (HBJ Science, 1989) says, “Nothing really means nothing,” and “From this state of nothingness the universe began in a gigantic explosion.”

So…nothing exploded and here we all are. And they call this science!

In Discover Magazine, April 2002, we read, “The universe burst into something from absolutely nothing – zero, nada. And as it got bigger, it became filled with even more stuff that came from absolutely nowhere. How is that possible? Ask Alan Guth. His theory of inflation helps explain everything.”

Well in Scientific American Magazine, Alan Guth said, “…the observable universe could have evolved from an infinitesimal region. It’s then tempting to go one step further and speculate that the entire universe evolved from literally nothing.”

So…we all came from a dot and the dot came from nothing. This is what they teach in schools. All of the dirt in the universe was in the little dot and it started spinning faster and faster until one day it exploded. The pieces became galaxies and stars.

Where did the dirt come from? The scientists can’t tell you that. So if I tell you that I believe that 6000 years ago God created everything, you’ll probably ask me where God came from. I don’t know. But the scientists say 20 million years ago the dirt came together and there was a big bang.

I believe In the beginning God… (Gen. 1:1)
You believe In the beginning dirt…

Don’t tell me my theory is religion and yours is science. They’re both religious. The difference is that evolution is tax supported!

Just to be clear: I believe that 6000 years ago God created the heaven and the earth. 4400 years ago there was a flood. 2000 years ago Jesus was born.

So where did the laws come from? Gravity, centrifugal force, intertia, etc.
Where did the energy come from? It takes energy to make something move.
And what about the conservation of angular momentum? That means that if a spinning object breaks apart in a frictionless environment (like the big bang) the pieces that fly off are going to spin in the same direction as the original object because the outside is moving faster than the inside. If the universe began as a spinning dot, shouldn’t everything be spinning the same way? Venus and Uranus spin in different directions than the other planets. 8 of the 91 known moons are spinning backwards. Jupiter, Saturn, and Neptune have moons orbiting in both directions. Some galaxies spin backwards.

That’s kind of hard on the big bang theory, isn’t it?

Dr. Hovind believes things are spinning backwards because God created everything and He did it on purpose to make the big bang theory look stupid. Also, if the big bang theory were true, the matter would be evenly distributed. Instead, it is “lumpy.” There are clusters of stars then great voids.

So what about the 2nd law of thermodynamics? Everything tends to disorder. If you leave something alone long enough it will rot, rust, die, or fall apart. Nothing gets better by itself. But the textbooks say we’re getting better! From HBJ Earth Science, 1989, “Humans probably evolved from bacteria that lived more than 4 billion years ago.” Evolutionists say that you can overcome the 2nd law by adding energy. They say the earth is an open system; it receives energy from the sun.

There are several problems with that. By definition, the universe is a closed system. And adding energy is destructive without a complex mechanism to harness the energy. The Japanese added lots of energy to Pearl Harbor in 1941 and nothing organized itself! We added lots of energy to Japan to end WWII and did not organize anything! Adding energy is destructive unless there’s something to use it. The sun adds energy to your roof all day every day. It will destroy your roof if you don’t do anything to fix it. It will destroy the roof of your car or the paint job on your car. There’s only one thing that can actually use the sun’s energy–chlorophyll. And chlorophyll is a very complex molecule.

Clearly, the sun’s energy does not overcome the 2nd law.

The schools are teaching our children that they’re animals! No wonder they act that way!

In Holt Earth Science, 1989 there’s a picture of a fossil starfish. The book says that it is 3.4 billion years old and is the remains of the early ancestors of human beings. HBJ General Science says, “About 30 million years ago, larger primates…evolved. The earliest fossil apes that may be ancestral to both humans and modern apes date from about 15-20 million years ago.”

Holt’s Biology: Visualizing Life, 1994 states, “You’re an animal and share a common heritage with earthworms.”

In the 50′s, textbooks had very little to say about evolution. On average there was about 2000-3000 words on the subject. Then in 1957 the Russians beat us in the space race when they launched Sputnik. Americans panicked. Someone said the reason the Russians were ahead in science was because they taught evolution in their schools. (What does evolution have to do with putting a satellite in space?) 1959 was the 100 year anniversary of Charles Darwin’s The Origin of Species. So Congress was lobbied to get more evolution into the textbooks. The first time the government got involved with textbooks was during this time. The number of words teaching about evolution jumped from 2000-3000 to 33,000 in just a few years (from 1959-1963).

By 1963 prayer was taken out of schools. Since 1963 STD’s among 10-14 year olds has skyrocketed. Unwed pregnancies went up. Premarital sex rates went up. Divorce rates went up. Violent crimes have gone up 1000%! SAT scores have plummeted since 1963. In 1995 they had to dumb down the SATs so the scores would be higher. Teen suicide rates have skyrocketed.

Now, if I told you that you could kiss a frog and get a prince you’d tell me that’s a fairy tale. But that’s what the textbooks are teaching! You start off as an amoeba, slowly evolve into a frog, and very slowly become a prince. The only difference is that if the frog turns into a prince quickly, it’s a fairy tale and if the frog turns into a prince slowly, it’s modern science. Billions of years ago…

So the next time someone says “Millions of years ago…” ask them if they were there. Is it something they know? Or believe? Is it really science? They will undoubtedly ask you if you were there when God created the earth 6000 years ago. Of course not. But I already admit mine is a religion. Why don’t you admit yours is a religion?

On August 31, 1998, the Washington Times reported that slightly more than half (55%) of US natural scientists believe in Darwinian evolution. But just because most scientists believe something doesn’t make it truth. Scientists used to teach that the planets revolved around the earth. They taught that a big rock falls faster than a small rock. They taught that for 2000 years. But it isn’t true. They used to teach that if you were sick you had bad blood. We know that isn’t true either.

If you went scuba diving and found a treasure chest full of coins, could you tell me when the boat sank? First you’d look at the date on the coins. If there’s a coin in there from 1750 you know the boat had to have sunk after 1750. That’s called a limiting factor.

So how old is the earth? There are some factors that limit the age of the earth. Dr. Hovind goes into this in more detail in the next session, so I’ll write about it then.

If you find a dinosaur bone there are two things you should notice immediately.
1. It does not talk.
2. There is no date stamped on it.
So how would you tell the age of a fossil? How would you tell the age of the earth? The only way to find out for sure how old something is is to ask the guy who made it.

The Bible says God created the heaven and the earth (Gen 1:1). In Matt. 19:4 it says that he made them (Adam and Eve) in the beginning, made them male and female. And again in Mark 10:6. Well if that was the beginning, we can figure out the age of the earth. You can go through the Bible and add up the dates.

The Bible says that death came by sin and sin by one man (Romans 5:12). Adam brought death into this world. There was no death before Adam sinned. Adam was the first man (1 Cor. 15:45) and his wife, Eve, was the mother of all living things (Gen. 3:20). Adam was 130 when he had his son Seth, Seth was 105 when he had Enos, and Enos was 90 when he had his son (Gen 5:3-9). If you look through the Bible you can add up everything and make a graph like this one. If you add up the dates it comes out to roughly 4000 BC.

The textbooks say the earth is billions of years old. Jesus said Adam was the beginning. Was Jesus lying? Did he not understand modern science? Or was he right?

I encourage your comments and will be posting more in this series.

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God is good…

by Mandi

…all the time!

I need to correct the way I’ve been thinking recently. I’ve been under the impression that God was being silent. That’s not it at all! God was speaking to me…I just wasn’t listening.

It’s amazing what happens when you begin to actually listen to what God is saying.

My homesickness hasn’t gone away, but I know that for now CO is where I’m supposed to be. He’s refining me here. And while I’ll always be going through the refining process, I think He’s doing the toughest part of it while I’m here. I need to be away from everything familiar so that I can rely wholly on Him. And when I get to the point where I know He’s all I need, He can begin a new process in me. And of course I have all of this head knowledge of what I need. It’s the application part that gets in my way.

I know God’s grace extends to even me. But I have a hard time putting that belief into practice because I feel like such a failure to God. But a friend of mine, Cheryl, has been challenging me on it and I’m starting to realize that God’s grace is more than sufficient.

And my dreams aren’t gone. I just hid them. My heart for ministry is still in the same place it’s always been. I just lied to myself when I said I wasn’t really called to it. God’s given me a heart for girls/women’s ministry. I still want to run a nonprofit home some day that will minister to the lives of hurting women. I want to counsel them from God’s word and show them the unconditional love of Jesus. That dream has never changed. And maybe, just maybe, it was my squelching of that dream that has contributed to a lot of the pain and trials I’ve gone through. In effect, I was quenching the Holy Spirit by hiding the desires that He gave me by thinking that I’m not good enough or that I can’t do it. But God is not going to call me to do something that He won’t enable me to do by His power.Let me say that again.

God is not going to ask me to do something that He won’t enable me to do with His power.

Isn’t God good?

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God knows

by Mandi

God is incredible. Sadly, that doesn’t make me feel any better. But I think it’s pretty awesome that, in light of everything going on, I woke up to a voicemail from my best friend out in Syracuse, NY. She has no knowledge of anything that’s been going on, but she said that God impressed upon her to tell me that He is sovereign and that nothing is too hard for Him. I started crying right then and there. Then she sang me the chorus of a song that praises how He reigns and how awesome He is.

Then I get in my car and start up my Natalie Grant cd. The song that plays is Awaken.

Sometimes I feel like I’m just existing
I’m not really living
I’m only watching the time slip away
I’ve forgotten who I am in you
I’m not who I’m meant to be
I’m drifting farther away from my destiny

Chorus:
Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken your power and take control
Awaken the passion to live for you, Lord
Awaken me
My soul is longing, my heart is searching
I’m desperate for you to move
Give me a hunger, pull me closer
I’m crying out to you
Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken your power and take control
Awaken the passion to live for you, Lord
Open my eyes so I can see your presence
Dwelling inside
Wake me up, cause I can’t live another minute
If I’m not shining your light
Awaken my heart, awaken my soul
Awaken the passion in me
Lord, awaken me to live my destiny
Lord, awaken me and shine your light through me
Lord, awaken me to live my destiny
Lord, awaken me and shine your light through me

If that song isn’t my prayer to the letter, I don’t know what is.

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Doubting Christians

by Mandi

All Christians sometimes doubt God. If anyone tells you they don’t, they’re lying. But usually it’s accompanied by feelings of intense guilt and remorse. Today I read an incredible essay written by a pastor that describes his doubts.

I have my doubts. About it all. God. Jesus. Life after death. Heaven. The Bible. Prayer. Miracles. Morality. Everything.

“But you are a pastor. A Christian leader.” That’s right, and I am an encyclopedia of doubts. Sometimes it scares me to death.

I’m terrified by the possibility that I might have wasted my entire life on the proposition that Christianity was true, when in fact it wasn’t even close. I wonder if I have been mentally honest with myself or with others, or have I compromised my own integrity in order to collect a paycheck and have a roof over my head? Have I acted as if the case for faith was clear when it was a muddled mess in my own mind?

What’s really frightening is that these doubts persist and get stronger the longer I live. They aren’t childish doubts; they are serious, grown-up fears. I don’t have the kind of faith that looks forward to death. The prospect terrifies me, sometimes to the point I am afraid to close my eyes at night. I have more questions about the Bible and Christianity than ever, even as I am more skilled at giving answers to the questions of others. I can proclaim the truth with zeal and fervor, but I can be riddled with doubts at the same time.

When I meet Christians whose Christian experience is apparently so full of divine revelation and miraculous evidence that they are beyond doubts, I am tempted to either resent them or conclude that they are fakes or simpletons. The power of self-delusion in the face of a Godless, meaningless life is undeniable. If there is no God, can I really blame someone for “taking the pill” to remain in his unquestioning certainties?

There is sometimes nothing worse than being able to comprehend both all my doubts and all the accepted, expected answers. It tears at the soul, and declares war on the mind. I feel remarkably alone in my moments of doubt, and wonder, “Do other Christians feel this yawning abyss of doubt, or am I just a bad Christian?”

The early chapters of Genesis make it clear that sin created a profound division between God and human beings. Not just an interruption in communication, but a universe-sized separation.. There is great evidence that this abyss creates a situation where human beings may reasonably, sensibly feel that God is absent, or that there is no God. This is not because of an absence of evidence for God’s existence, or because God has abandoned the world, but because human experience is fundamentally changed and we are blinded to the resident glory of God in the universe and within our lives.

My doubts exist alongside my appetite for God. I believe no one has put forward a more cogent and persuasive critique of theism than Sigmund Freud. Freud’s contention that human beings create a God in the sky out of their longings for a perfect father and their fear of death has the virtue of common sense and realism. As a Christian, I do not doubt that vast tracts of human religiosity can be explained by Freud’s analysis. Yet, Freud is wrong. The Biblical God is not wishful thinking, but the center of the spiritual “appetite” of human beings. Billions of human beings would prefer no God exist. Billions of human beings would like to make God in the image of Santa or Oprah. Yet, Christianity, Judaism (and even Islam) persistently put forward a God who is terrifying to who we are. A just, holy God of judgment. A God of heaven and hell. Not the God of the wishful thinkers, but the God who is a consuming fire.

And it is this God that we long to know. This God who repulses us and damns us. This God who demands the purity of thought and action. A God who demands that we love Him with all that we are and love our fellow persons as His creations. It is this God that we long to know in intimacy. It is this God we long to be accepted by, to trust and to praise. This God is the source of all the notions of beauty, truth and goodness that we find in this universe. C.S. Lewis said that appetite could not prove the existence of food, but I don’t think that speaks for the experience of the starving person.

It’s a great essay that really spoke to me about the doubts I sometimes have.

Read the whole thing.

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Who am I?

by Mandi

My heart hurts.

Why is it when it rains, it pours? Life is just…well it’s pretty horrible right now. I took a huge step today that hurts more than anything else. I told a very close friend of mine that I can’t talk to him anymore because it’s bad for my heart. I have major feelings for this guy (the nonbeliever that I’ve blogged about before) and the more we talk the bigger the emotional bond gets for me. So the obvious solution is to break the connection. So I did. He responded that he would be there when I’m ready to talk again. So I’ve spent some time sitting in my office crying this morning. He’s become such a huge part of my life that this will leave a noticeable void. We talk every day. We email back and forth all day while we’re at work and then chat through IM at night. He knows all of my secrets. He knows my struggles. He knows me like no one ever has. And I don’t want to lose that. But I have to.

Then this morning at our weekly development meeting God just started talking to me. And it made my heart hurt even more. I’m not the woman God created me to be. I’m a shell of a woman. I have no hopes or dreams anymore. I simply exist. And I can’t do anything for God while simply existing. It was very hard to sit through the meeting while having all of these thoughts going through my head. I don’t know who I am in Christ. The ironic thing is that just last week I prepared and led a Bible study called, "Who am I in Christ?" And I just don’t know the answer to that. I can remember having dreams and knowing what I was called to do. But I can also remember having those dreams shattered. And since then I’ve been too afraid to dream new ones. It seems like anything I dream of or hope for never happens. So it’s easier not to. But in reality, it isn’t easier. Because all it does is hurt me. And it destroys who I can be and the work I can do for the kingdom. I’m scared to admit this. But I’ve even had the thoughts recently that things would be better if I weren’t here. Those thoughts scare me more than anything else. I would never be suicidal, but I have hurt myself before. And to even let those thoughts into my mind is a dangerous place.

So…losing my best friend and seeing how I’m not who I’m supposed to be…those are pretty big. On top of all that I’m still battling MAJOR homesickness. To the point where I’ve considered in my mind all of the ways I could possibly go home. Of course, there are none because right now I can’t even afford to pay my bills, let alone move across the country again.

So basically I’m a mess. And I have no idea how to fix it. All I know is that I’m not happy. The only good thing I feel like I have in my life is my Care Group. They all love me and were more than happy to prove that when they prayed over my homesickness last night. If I didn’t have all of those guys I don’t know what I’d do.

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Struggling with Life and Homesick

by Mandi

Life is hard.

I know that isn’t news to anyone, but it’s true. What can I say? I like to state the obvious.

There are two major things affecting me right now. First, I continue to struggle with sinning willfully. I think I’m probably the vilest sinner on the planet. I completely empathize with Paul when he said he was the chief of all sinners. Donald Miller compared himself to Hitler when he realized what a selfish sinner he was. That’s about how I feel right now. I can’t figure out why God keeps me around. How can a sinner like me do anything to further the kingdom? All I do is disappoint God over and over and over again. And then I think about doing things that would disappoint God. Like marrying a man who isn’t a Christian. I can’t tell you how often I’ve thought about compromising on that issue in the last few weeks. If it came down to it, I’m 99.9% sure I wouldn’t do it. But that hasn’t stopped me from thinking about it. And wanting to. Really wanting to.

Second, I’m very homesick. One of my best friends just moved from CO to NC and it was all I could do not to jump in the back of her uhaul and hitch a ride. I miss my family. I miss the way things are done in the South. I miss everything about it.

I want to go home.

But I can’t. God has me here for a reason, though He’s the only one who knows what that reason is. I have a great job here. I do have friends here. And somehow, God is going to use me here. Why do Colorado and North Carolina have to be so far apart?

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Color photos from WWI

by Mandi

I stumbled across the most amazing thing over on www.damninteresting.com. There were color photographs taken during WWI. I didn’t think color film was around back then, but apparently it was invented in France in 1907. Most of these photographs are of French soldiers. What strikes me is how the color brings the event forward in time. Everyone is familiar with the old grainy B&W photos that take you back. But these could almost have been taken yesterday.

See them for yourself. These are photos that were mostly taken during the last two years of the war. You can see soldiers in the trenches and the damage and devastation caused by the war.

This one is my favorite:

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New Tenant

by Mandi

It’s been awhile since I’ve done the whole blog tenant thing, but I decided to do it again. The Blunt Prophet is my new tenant for this week! He doesn’t have a thumbnail image available, but click through anyway for incredible posts about God being in everyday life. (I’m not linking to him in this post so you’ll have to click on the non-thumbnail in my sidebar!)

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Blah-ging

by Mandi

So I stole a word from Randy. Blah-ging. Except I spelled it differently than him.

Anyways, I’ve got a case of the blahs, and I can’t find anything I want to write about.

I’m open to suggestions.


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