God is good…
Aug 16th, 2006 by Amanda
…all the time!
I need to correct the way I’ve been thinking recently. I’ve been under the impression that God was being silent. That’s not it at all! God was speaking to me…I just wasn’t listening.
It’s amazing what happens when you begin to actually listen to what God is saying.
My homesickness hasn’t gone away, but I know that for now CO is where I’m supposed to be. He’s refining me here. And while I’ll always be going through the refining process, I think He’s doing the toughest part of it while I’m here. I need to be away from everything familiar so that I can rely wholly on Him. And when I get to the point where I know He’s all I need, He can begin a new process in me. And of course I have all of this head knowledge of what I need. It’s the application part that gets in my way.
I know God’s grace extends to even me. But I have a hard time putting that belief into practice because I feel like such a failure to God. But a friend of mine, Cheryl, has been challenging me on it and I’m starting to realize that God’s grace is more than sufficient.
And my dreams aren’t gone. I just hid them. My heart for ministry is still in the same place it’s always been. I just lied to myself when I said I wasn’t really called to it. God’s given me a heart for girls/women’s ministry. I still want to run a nonprofit home some day that will minister to the lives of hurting women. I want to counsel them from God’s word and show them the unconditional love of Jesus. That dream has never changed. And maybe, just maybe, it was my squelching of that dream that has contributed to a lot of the pain and trials I’ve gone through. In effect, I was quenching the Holy Spirit by hiding the desires that He gave me by thinking that I’m not good enough or that I can’t do it. But God is not going to call me to do something that He won’t enable me to do by His power.Let me say that again.
God is not going to ask me to do something that He won’t enable me to do with His power.
Isn’t God good?
Tags: Christianity, God, Depression
Praise His holy name!
I just came across your blog through Blog Explossion, and have enjoyed reading your honesty and struggles, yet giving praise to God. One of my favorite songs has been “Life is Hard, but God is Good”.
Keep the faith.
You continue to be heavy on my mind and I am praying for you Eowyn. I’m excited to see where God is going to take you! These struggles are never without purpose and your pain will be something He uses to minister to others. He knows how you think and He knows how to communicate with you and He will never stop pursuing you. The fact I am alive is testimony to these truths.
You are my sister and I love you!
Amen! He is good!
You have great dreams, I too had a very crazy dream of starting Malaysia’s first Christian radio station. Sometimes it seem so distant or even impossible (Malaysia being a muslim dominated country), but God is God, He’ll make a way!
I pray as we continue to walk this journey of faith we’ll be able to gain and learn more from Him. God has put everything in there for all of our needs, there’s nothing to be afraid of!
God bless you!
Ahhhh…reinforce something great about you. And then you would make it weak and pathetic. At least you have dreams regardless that they would prove to create more of the blindness in the world. Even the ones who make themselves low can dream, heh. Oh, I won’t harrass no more. You just linked here and I never commented about my last visit. I had though of something really great for your testimony that in all seriousness was not thought of in a mean mannered way, well I never do that, the way I write just gives that impression I guess.
Sounds good and on. I can relate. My Texas Mom runs a home for hurting women. She rocks.